One F'ing Year ago today!!!!

So today January 10th 2008 was a good day for me. I had spent the last 9 months fighting for what I wanted when it came to Hayden. It was official I got everything I wanted (but the name change) It was about 3:00pm on a Friday after noon and I was so excited I didnt know what to do. Shawn had nothing and I had it all Full legal custody of my baby and all the stress, fighting had finaly paid off. So in my excitement I agreed to let Shawn see Hayden that night. (mind you before this date the last time he had seen Hayden was April 22nd '07) So I meet him at Mc Donalds on Classen and Expressway. They ate dinner and he never once looked at me or said more then 5 words to me. (whatever didnt matter to me) So we meet there at 5:30 and were outa there by 7.

Since then Shawn has tried to contact us to set up visitations (only with my parents and when and where its convient for my parents) and he NO SHOWED... that was in July then we did not hear from him again until December 20th and again he never replied to us trying to set something up.

So it is January 10th, 2009 and its been 1 full year since Shawn has seen Hayden. Now dont get me wrong I wish Shawn would man up and be a father because when he was in his father roll and just focused on Hayden he was great... but he was just a total ass to me and an acoholic and I would not put up with it anymore. Even thought Hayden has not seen his "birth father" God blessed us with a perfect man. Scott and I met in March of '08 and he is the best father Dad Hayden could ever have. I am truly blessed that he is in our life and willing to step up where Shawn left off and be the Father/Dad Hayden needs in his life.

So for that Today has been a WONDERFUL day.
Bet you I will hear from Shawn around maybe Hayden's birthday on the 26th or Fathers day when he all of a sudden gets a guilty soul and thinks oh shit let me be a father for a day then when he calles and we set something up.. he will just do it again and come up with a lame excuse on why he cant make it or he will just not call at all.

Ok done venting... Wonderful Day 1 year later...

Sad day in OKLAHOMA!

I got this email this morning from a good dear friend of mine (who is a Texas fan mind you) and she just knows how to push my buttons....but its all out of Love and compassion for me. So Karen thanks for making a dark sad day darker...but I love you anyways. Just thought i would share. Nothing else positive to write about today.




seems the range of the gator is edging its way into OK. hehehe (that is what Karen said at the bottom of the pictures)

BOOMER SOONER BABY!!!!

So excited about the game tonight!!! Time to go and party. Just a few pictures I have that I just love.

Lets go SOONERS.
Let's come home with a WIN and if we lose Gosh please have it be because we played a great game and have it be close.... that is all I have to say.

BOOMER SOONER!!!!!!!!!

Christmas/New Years

So it's here 2009! Wow never thought I would see this year come after last year. But its here and it's going to be the best year I can make it be. SO I have been off work for 2 weeks now and let me tell you I am ready to get back to work on MONDAY. I love being off don't get me wrong just time to get back to normal. (what ever that means) Here are some pictures of Christmas and New Years. Hope everyone had a great holiday and safe New Year.

ADULT GAME NIGHT!!!

Ok so I tried this adult night NO KIDS party at my house a few months ago and it was fun but its time to do it again. So I am inviting all of you to join us at my house on Saturday January 31st. Let me know if you are interested in coming. We had dinner and played games. Just a time for us parents to have a nice fun night out without the kidos. (if the kids come that is fine Hayden was here last time) Leave me a comment if you would like to join us and I will let you know what to bring. Bring what ever games you have. We played scatigories, guestures things like that. It was so much fun.

Have a wonderful New Year and hope to see you all in 2009

For the Rest of my Life

I promise I will love you for the rest of my life.
I will love you until the end of time. I will be your everything, if you will be mine.
I want to hold you forever and never let you go.
I love you so much just thought you should know.
I will never stop caring, I will never leave you
Believe me, my love will always be true.
I love the way you love me, I only wish that you could See just how much your love means to me.
I don't care about the world as long as I'm with you.
Believe me when I say that no one else will do.
I said I will love you forever, and that is just what I will do.
I cannot wait to spend the rest of my life with you.
I want to have you as my husband, and I'll be your wife
Baby, I'm going to love you for the rest of my life.


Scott- Thank you for the most wonderful Christmas ever. You mean the world to me and I could not have found a better person or friend like I have found in you. You make me complete and I cant wait until the day we are a true family. Thank you again for my wonderful beautiful gifts that I will cherish for the rest of my life. I love you baby Merry Christmas.


(I love writing poems and can say more of what I want to say in a poem then I can in person so I know this is cheesy for a blog but I had to let Scott know and the whole world know who I love and how happy I am)

Random

Ok so my vacation started and I am cleaning my house. ANYONE WANT TO HELP? Just kidding. I'm taking a break and thought I would post a few things that Hayden said the other day....Last week I was getting him ready for his school Christmas party on Friday..I was telling him he was going to see Santa...he stoped me and said but mommy I have already seen Santa twice...Ok were did that come from. I just laughed and said ok well you are going to see him again. He has fun and all he could talk about was how he saw Santa again. Children and Christmas.

Then last night I have an angel that I put in his room and told Hayden that he needed to be a good boy because this angel was one of Santa's helpers and that he was watching Hayden and would fly back to the North Pole and tell Santa if he had been a good boy or not. When it was time for bed Hayden turned the TV off and said good night angel tell Santa I'm a good boy. (tear) I then took the angel and moved it to the living room. This morning Hayden saw it in their and told me that it came back from the North Pole and that he was still a good boy. Thanks to my mom for this idea.

Thanks to everyone who helped with the babysitter issue. I appreciate it and now have 2 more names to add to my list. Thanks girls you all are a great help.